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Writing/Anxiety and perfectionism
Writing

Anxiety & Perfectionism

Anxiety in high performers often looks like conscientiousness until it stops looking like anything but pain.

When anxiety is the engine and the cost

In high-performing professionals, anxiety is frequently the thing driving the performance. Preparation is thorough because the alternative is unbearable. Deadlines are met early. Nothing is left to chance. The results are genuinely good, which is precisely why the anxiety goes unexamined for years.

The cost accumulates quietly — in sleep, in the physical symptoms that get attributed to something else, in the decisions made to avoid discomfort rather than to pursue anything, and in the narrowing of a life around the management of dread.

These pieces cover anxiety disorders and panic as they present in people whose anxiety is also functioning as their work ethic.

What evaluation looks for

Anxiety is a symptom before it is a diagnosis, and a number of things produce it that are not anxiety disorders. Thyroid disease, cardiac arrhythmia, medication effects, stimulant use, and sleep apnoea all present this way, and all are missed when the assessment starts from the assumption that the problem is psychological.

A proper evaluation asks what else could be doing this, distinguishes generalised anxiety from panic from performance-specific anxiety, and establishes whether something else — untreated ADHD, an undiagnosed mood disorder — is generating it. Those distinctions change what treatment is appropriate.